To the one who will never read this (therefore, if you are, this is not about you)

I just got done reading some of the postcards on http://postsecret.blogspot.com/. It made me think of you. Here are some of my confessions written, again, where you will never find them. Enjoy ----

I wish I had never met you. Barring that, I wish that you had died in some poignant, tragic way years ago. Then I could remember you fondly, and only feel guilty about being relieved.

You are an open wound that will not heal.

You stink of disdain, you are filled with rejection, you make me feel ugly.

Stop lying.

I do not need your approval.

I have always assumed you would be appalled, but it still hurts to see it on your face. It sucks to be so right.

I wish I could forget you. But like any victim of a catastrophy, I am obligated to remember so I will recognize the danger in the future. You have become one of the great tragedies of my life.

You are so shallow, you judge with your eyes because your mind is closed. I am not what I appear to be.

You are wrong. Everything you say, everything you do, approaches wrong like a speeding train. The fact that it doesn't ever quite smack you in the face can only be explained by using calculus.

I hate calculus.

The things you say are so perfectly cruel it is uncanny. Do you practice that stuff in front of a mirror?

How can you be so clever, but so stupid? How can you be so incredibly insecure, yet so immensely arrogant?

Talking about ethics does not make you ethical.

You are correct to refer to yourself in the lower case. I know you are only trying to be trendy and deep, but accidentally you have stumbled upon the truth. How uncommon for you.

Do you actually think I want to sleep with you? How can you possibly imagine that? What part of "you scare me" do you not understand? If I don't trust you, why would I want you to touch me?

There is more, but it will have to wait. Right now I have discovered something better to do. When I feel the need to vent again, I will revisit this entry. Sayonara.